My brother, he’s now 34, I’m 36 have been having sex for over 12 years. It started in our early 20s after a night of drinking, watching a movie and next thing I know, he’s rubbing my feet. I stretched out more and I don’t know how it transitioned to him slowly rubbing my leg. Before I knew it I was touching him back and eventually kissing happened.
This was a near repeat scenario for close to a year while we both attended college and still lived with our parents. Eventually, it progressed and sex happened and then it kept happening a lot.
Fast forward, we kept saying we were going to stop. We have our own relationships, and seemingly happy. I love my partner, he is amazing and I love his kids like they are my own. My brother, he has a lovely wife and family. However, we can never shake how intense our sex is. We purposely find reasons to hang out, and the same sexual encounters are ongoing.
We both agree. It’s sick. It’s wrong but we just cannot feel this way with anyone else. We have tried to stop, but we always come back & be with another.
Is it the taboo that does this to us? Why does it feel so good? Why can’t we feel like this with our actual partners?