i (24F) have always been known in my circle as the “good girl” as i grew up very active in church. i don’t even curse, never really explored anything sexual (except for kissing), and i have never even masturbated in my 23 years of existence. and i honestly thought i had everything under control when it came to that side of me.
but recently, i met this guy while playing pickleball in an open play. he’s quiet, smart, nerdy, a bit shy, sleeper build (i think) and not the type i usually notice at all. but for some reason, he’s the first guy who made me feel this kind of attraction. hindi lang sya simple crush eh. it surprised me how quickly my mind started going in directions i’m not used to. and i hate how honest i have to be about this, but i started having sexual thoughts about him. then it escalated na din. it got me wondering… how does it feel to be fucked by nerds? yung nerds na di sila aware that they’re so fucking hot? feeling ko kasi may gigil eh tapos sobrang dominant nila, contrary to what people think they are— submissive. i also feel like they know all the ins and outs of edging.
kaya ayun ever since i met him, natuto ako magfinger then i also imagine na we’re having a hot make out session that is so intense to the point na mapapatanggal siya ng glasses. then he’s going to fuck me roughly in all positions tapos binabalibag ka while dirty talking. tahimik at introverted but will definitely rock your world.
as i type this nakokonsensya ako for feeding my sexual desires pero wala e. huhu sunday pa naman bukas KSNDJSJSSJ repent na lang ako ulit. for now, i just really really want to voice out this fantasy and get it off my chest.