u/The_Goddess_Eviie

In my pursuit of leaving lifelong marks on my subs and ruining every male I come in contact with, I had this fun little idea:

I would love to find a sub who considers himself fully straight. Someone who has never thought of having any gay intercourse or even watched gay porn. First, it would start softly: consuming less and less straight porn and replacing it with gay porn, only allowed to touch himself while thinking of men.

Eventually, if he has a relationship, I'd make him come out to his girlfriend and break up with her. Then he would start coming out to all of his friends.

The ultimate goal would be to get him to download Grindr so I could pick a bunch of guys for him to message, telling him exactly what to say, and finally send him on his first gay date.

At every step, I would remind him that he needs to go through this because he doesn't deserve to be near women, and that the only way he should talk to them is by sending them money.

You haven't seen the sun in months, all you know is your pathetic life in front of your computer. Working, jerking off to camgirls, eating, sleeping, nothing else was happening in your life. Everything was feeling empty, working was boring as usual, the camgirls could barely get your fucked up brain excited, oversleeping daily. Every sensation was dull, nothing could make you happy, sad, scared or anything. You thought a few times of ending it, but you couldn't do that to your parents. You knew you were already a disappointment and didn't want to hurt them more.

One day, you fell onto some blackmail subreddits. You didn't know much of this kink, but it really piqued your interest. Sending your personal info to a stranger and being forced to do whatever they wanted? That sounded like it could make you feel something again. And God knows how desperate you were to feel something, anything even.

So you started dynamics here and there, there was some thrill at the start. But everyone you played with was just too gentle. Like they actually cared for you in some way and didn't want to hurt you. The more dynamics like this you had, the bigger the itch grew. You wanted someone to truly hurt you, to threaten your life, to push you to the edge harder.

You came onto a profile, some "unethical findomme" or so she called herself. Someone that could ruin you financially to the point you would never recover and also blackmail you to the extreme? You needed to feel that thrill. So you contacted her, started a dynamic.

As the days passed, she got her claws on you and she had you slowly sending your whole bank account, life savings and even taking loans to send more. It didn't matter how much you sent, she never was satisfied. You gave her pictures of you, your workplace name, even your mom's number. You were trapped in sending to her again and again.

But finally, you had found peace in this new ruined life of yours. She gave you a reason to wake up every day, to work hard so you could send her everything, she made sure you never touched porn again, only ate ramen and drank water and even made an altar to pray daily to her. She gave your life meaning and finally you were able to experience feelings again.

As a man, you were raised being taught that you could get anything you wanted. That the world should bend to your desires and that you were allowed to take everything you wanted. So how did you end up in this position? Having no body autonomy, surviving with the bare minimum and giving all you could to a woman.

You knew you were fucked up early on, never really managed to get into an actual relationship or bond with any woman around you. At best they never paid too much attention to you, at worst they would treat you like a loser and use you in one way or another. But as time passed, you slowly started to understand why all of this was happening to you. Some men might have everything handed to them, but not you. Something was wrong with you, you had no value to bring.

If you were to be honest and look at yourself you'd have to admit that you're pretty ugly, in bad shape, balding and with absolutely no interesting personality. Talking with you was as fun as sitting in front of a wall and trying to chat with it. Absolutely no social skills.

You tried to get better, of course. But in the end, there is just something lacking in you.

So you started sending money to pretty women online to get some of their attention. You quickly grew into your real self, giving up more and more.

At first it was just some sends here and there, then the number started to get higher and higher. Then you started taking part in BDSM relationships. Never with those nice Dommes that would respect you, praise you or anything like that. Always with unethical Dommes that would abuse you verbally, mentally and even sometimes make you hurt yourself for their fun.

You used to be sad about this life you were living, but you fell into my trap and I taught you how to accept your true identity.

From a day to another, I made sure you were caged 24/7, that you had no right to touch yourself without my permission. I started picking your clothes, your haircut. When you put me in a bad mood, I punished you by forcing you to hit your balls as hard as possible and send me a video of that for me to laugh at it. I made you send your whole paycheck while keeping barely enough to survive on ramen and pay your bills.

As time passed you accepted that this was the only life such a pathetic being like you should be living and promised yourself you would never try to change it.

In the end, by learning how to strip yourself from thinking you were a man that deserves everything you gained acceptance of your true self and found happiness in being just a toy.

Those are my favourite subs, the ones craving the ruin, the ones that knows deep down that they don't deserve better and should just give all up.