last night i was so stressed from school i couldnt even sit still. i had been crying in my room about my upcoming exams when daddy knocked and asked if i was okay. i told him my shoulders and back were killing me from sitting at my desk all day so he offered to give me a back rub. i said yes and laid on my stomach on his bed in just my tank top and shorts.
he started rubbing my shoulders with lotion and it felt really nice. after a few minutes i turned over so he could do my front too. we were looking at each other and the room got really quiet. he leaned down and kissed me. it wasnt a quick kiss. it was slow and deep and i kissed him back. i pulled him closer and he took my tank top off. he kissed my chest and my stomach while his hand went inside my shorts. he rubbed me until i came shaking and holding onto his arm. then he pulled my shorts and panties off and got between my legs. he pushed inside me really slow and careful. it felt tight at first but then warm and full. he moved gentle the whole time, holding my hips and asking if it was okay. i came again while he was inside me and then he finished too. we just laid there afterwards without saying much.
this morning we made breakfast together like normal but i keep replaying how it felt when he was on top of me. i feel guilty and confused but i also feel closer to him than i ever have