Cheated once and never went back F(25)
I have a bf since almost 2 years now, super attractive, fit, very kind - basically everything i want in a man.
A year ago Post my work i was in a van with a guy, calling it a day. I was in one end of the van the guy was talking and walking when he eventually came and sat right next to me, still talking.
I felt so besharam as he leaned in suddenly, his breath hot against my ear, whispering how much he’d been wanting to get me alone since our first table read. I knew it was dangerous but the way he was playing made me forget everything at once. The next day, the tension on set was so thick it felt like it was choking me. the moment I stepped inside, he didn't even let me speak, just shut the door and smirked. Mind you my bf was inches outside the door.
This was a regular occurence till one day, the risk we were taking finally pushed us over the edge. Every thrust felt like a strike against the two years of loyalty I owed my man, but I was too far gone to care. I had to bury my face into the pillow, biting the fabric to stifle the moans that were threatening to tear out of my throat.
When it finally happened, the release was so intense I felt lightheaded, my body shaking as I tried to pull myself back together before the door opened. That day and today, i've never told him what i do without him. I realized then that I wasn't just playing a character anymore; I was living a double life.