Tldr: I'm not looking for a dynamic with anyone, but rather want to find someone domme leaning to talk and explore my weird submissive headspace.
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It's been a while by now that I discovered for myself that I'm neither straight nor just dominant, yet whenever I try to reflect a bit about it, it all more often than not feels very new and unclear for me. And it's ironic because even though I've been on the dominant side of things, it's hard for me to be a sub.
I've been enjoying a lot of submissive male content, indulging in different fantasies of submission, chastity, getting feminised and many more things and I very much like these. But when I get into the thick of things beyond looking at porn I struggle to be a sub instead of just fantasising about it.
One of my issues is that I'm bad at letting go of control, but I think I also just lack talking to someone that is actually dominant (and not just a horny online man cosplaying as a dominant) but also gentle and understanding of difficulties and realities beyond (just) the gooning.
Don't get me wrong, I'm also keen to indulge in fantasies and exchange ideas, but I'd like to talk about exploring this headspace with someone that knows more about it, talk about practical aspects or even logistics of different kinks.
I'm not interested in finding an online dynamic, where I'm submitting to you, but really someone to talk.