Anyone else have sexual fantasies about their bishop?
Tldr: there was suspected feelings of mutual attraction and it led to fantasies about him.
Ive always thought he was a handsome guy and on top of that hes such a people person and a good listener.
While being a part of the YW presidency, I'd see him quite a lot. And most times its just friendly. But there'd be short moments where he'd look at me and it feels like he's...noticing me in a less than spiritual way lol
Then after being inactive we talked a bit at my nephews baptism. At this point I gained some confidence because apparently not only was my body hot but my face was also pretty it turns out lol. So I had been getting compliments that I look happier.
And if i feel comfortable enough with people, I tend to keep eye contact pretty well and he has a way of making you feel comfortable. We get into the topic dating. There was no flirting. I was being honest, nonchalant, and appropriate.
But even then there was attraction kinda growing at the back of my mind. Until it almost got to a point where it felt like I was talking to a single friend lol. But then there was a slight lull in the convo where there was a bit of tension and then he just walks away all of a sudden 😆
It was a bit weird to me and only after the fact I started to consider that maybe he was finding me attractive too.
Ugh, ever since then ive had a few hot daydreams about having sex with him and having an affair. In fact I hadn't talked to or seen him since then. Since im not active in church or activities. I went to church once and I swear he scooted behind the pulpit so I wouldnt see him. Or vice versa maybe lol. And for my nieces missionary farewell, he happened to be on a trip. Always eluding me haha (how do u like it, bishop! Thats what he gets for conspiring w my mother to give me a calling lmao)