u/bashfulgoonette

It's exhausting to use my mind.

I don't read anymore. Sometimes I find myself thinking and getting bored with the thought as I'm having it. My mind drifts to porn when I'm in public, especially at the gym. I'm getting more pliable, getting easier to distract, horny. I fantasize about a bimbo life. When I have stress I get so tired and can't help but think I'm just not meant to struggle and think. I live to be controlled by my clit, I love to be controlled by porn, and it feels so good to give up my mind.

....and sooo ready to lean into the edging, gooning life. My goals: edge constantly, become a bimbo, and date a gooner. I am so excited for this next chapter of my life, I feel so FREE and like I can just sink and play with cunnie and not care about anything else other than porn and finding a bf who loves me for being the nasty dummy cunt that I am MEANT to be.

Winding down for the night and started rubbing my filthy goonette pussy and put on some porn. Except... I realized I wasn't in the "mood" to rub. But I kept doing it..... Then I realized that's kinda a way to rape yourself, to make yourself keep going even if you still have enough of your faculties to stop. To know you'll want it eventually and keep going. And sure enough, I know I will be here all night now that my dripping cunnie is calling the shots....

In my everyday life, I'm an "anti porn" feminist. I'm a devout Christian and go to church several times a week. But in my downtime... I am addicted to being a goonette, huffing poppers and smoking weed and rubbing my plappy parts to gooner compilations, PMVs, and all the delicious confessions my fellow gooners and goonettes post on here and in other subreddits. I always thought this was the thing that made me a fraud, but actually, it's the most free I ever feel, and the deeper I go the rest the other parts of my life don't matter as much. It feels good to sink, to tether my dopamine production to my cunnie, and to get dumber with every stroke.