Struggling with submission
Me and my Dom have been together for 5 years. Our dynamic has had its ups and down due to us getting married and having children. Overall though id say it’s been very rewarding.
(We used to have a very clear cut 24/7 dynamic but it’s not possible with two toddlers which has sucked but this year I’ve challenged myself to find joy in our dynamic even if it doesn’t look exactly how I wished)
Anyways Recently ive noticed it’s been super hard to let go and actually submit to my Dom. He’ll ask me to do things and I find myself with 0 desire to execute it.
I don’t consider myself a brat, typically I fall under more of a service sub/little/pet umbrella.
I think a part of it comes from I’m a stay at home mom and primary doer of most of the household chores. I have to be “on” all day or else our house and lives fall apart.
Submission truly helps my mental health and right now I feel like there’s no release because of this block.
I’m wondering if any other subs have experienced this and have advice of if any Doms have helped a sub through it.
EDIT:
I realize now based on comments I DID NOT phrase things right. My Dom is extremely helpful when he’s home, it’s just that he’s out of the house 55 hours a week. The notion that our lives fall apart is due to if I don’t clean during the day our house quickly devolves into chaos due to two toddlers existing. So my brain has a hard time turning off once he is home.
I don’t worry about finances at ALL so it’s a trade in the sense I handle a good chunk of the household chores and he handles all the finance aspects of our lives. Sorry for misleading anyone 😅