Missed my one encounter
A story and a rant please bear with me!
So I had a bit of hoe phase last year. Not so much a hoe phase as it is a dating phase really. Sadly with dating these days, they do expect you to take your clothes off (kahit di properly communicated aayain ka mag check in amp) which... well let's just say nakakapagod sya emotionally and spiritually. So I stopped and I have been enjoying my own company and focusing on my family and friends (people who matter).
Although there are days like this where I get introspective and start feeling a bit lonely. I did have one guy who I met here in reddit and he was so good. Good as good in bed with a capital G. He doesn't even look like it cause he mentioned he's an IT dude and he does look like an IT dude but natural baby face din sya so it adds to his charm (for me). His voice was so nice and he keeps sending me videos na nagjjakol sya while moaning my name and then cumming and I'm that repressed hoe reacting to it like JHBDSFHBAHD SO SEXY I CANT TAKE IT
It took me weeks before ako bumigay at kinita ko sya, and although I am a bit disheartened knowing that it will just be purely physical (I'm a romantic sue me), my ass still went to him cause oh my godddd his dick and his voice and his bodyyyyy AAAAAAAAAGGHHHHHH i think he goes to the gym a bit cause his arms are a bit defined but his stomach is soft enough that I know he eats full meals without guilt.
And he unashamedly moans my fcking name without it being cringe (I was about to start crying at one point because of how stimulated I was lmaoo) and he's so good at telling me what to do. I did not even feel shame wolfing down his dick (sorry guys, truth is medyo humilating ang blowjob in some way sksksks) albeit my very inexperienced ass is cringing sa sarili ko but he keeps telling me I was doing well. And did I mention his dick??? CAUSE MY GOD IT WAS BEAUTIFUL he was so big ughhh I could not even care less that he's wearing goofy (panda print) boxers cause his dick looks like a gift huhuhuhu like gets nyo ba to mga atecco??? like I was fully feral for this dude
And then he fucked me and OH MY GOD TALAGAAAA ruined me for anyone I'm sure 😢 I could feel him all the way to my stomach and that's legit the only time I came from penetration alone (usually I need stimulation in other ways). He even came inside me and not a single cell in my body cared that this dude was a stranger and he probably didn't even give me his real name.
Sadly, after that, I of course knew I was in trouble and I would go proper crazy with want for him. So I haven't gotten around to meeting him again. We still messaged after that but of course it's the soulless "I enjoyed my time with you" until one day he deleted his account. A part of me was relieved of course since he was not gonna be a temptation to me anymore but of course another part was... sad about it. Sad cause I legit think I would not find anyone that sexually compatible with me. I hope he had a good time back then. I doubt I will ever see him again.