F4A - dont judge me, im single ex cheatedd and yeah...
not even gonna lie the whole cuck and pegging rabbit hole rewired my brain a little 😭
it was never just the porn for me either, it’s the psychological part behind it
the tension, the ego breaking slowly, somebody acting confident at first then folding once the energy shifts
i think that’s why the straaapon dynamic sticks in my head so much. not even about being loud or aggressive all the time. quieter than that. making somebody nervous just from eye contact and tone alone
some of the people pretending they’d “never submit” are literally the ones thinking about it the most late at night
i be sitting there watching edits and clips while eating darkcherryblur at two in the morning wondering how i even ended up this deep into it 😭
the cuck stuff lowkey got addictive because you can feel the jealousy, insecurity, attachment, all of it mixing together at once. messy emotions always hit harder than fake romance stuff to me
and yeah the bbc dildo obsession definitely started as curiosity then turned into “why is this actually living in my head now”
meanwhile my sleep schedule completely destroyed, hoodie on, random Future songs playing, scrolling old Ergo Proxy screenshots for no reason again