u/deltacharliejuliet

Nothing beats a new hair piece. The clean feel, the new style. I already have 5 wigs, who knows how many I'll end up with. How about you?

I have tried magnetic eyelashes and eyeliner to hold them. Ive tried glue on. But I run into a few problems. Maybe you can help address them..

1. Eyeliner is the hardest to remove and return to normal guy mode untraced, so I often avoid it. Whats your solution.

2. Glue (unless you know a better product) can irritate my eye like a tiny allergic reaction. Not so bad I can't do it. But bad enough after several hours I have to flood my eyes with drop or remove the eyelashes. Drops can ruin makeup.

You see my predicament? Beauty can come at a cost, but what Id really like is some ideas from you all for some unique work around. Thanks Juliet

Sorry everyone, sometimes I post thing that aren't relevant to the subreddit. Not intentional. Simple mistake.

But this one must be relevant. I hope. Does anyone else do contouring with makeup? Can you share your best products and blending tips?

Juliet

I uses filters sparingly anyway but this one has none. Someone needs to pay for my facial feminization surgeries and breast implants. But for now, this is the real me. Haha

Juliet exposed 🥰

Crossdressing bring feelings that flood the body and mind. Is that true for you too?

Juliet🥰

What does SHE (alter ego) offer?

She doesnt have a job. She doesn't WANT a job. Shes not philanthropic. She doesnt want kids, probably. She doesnt build more, connect more, or cook more, usually. So what does she offer?

I'm talking about Juliet, my alter ego. My girl in the mirror. My girl inside me.

Its something thats hard to define. As a man I want to see value, definition, focus. I want to see something get done, be finished, see progress. SHE doesnt do that. SHE shops, dines, buys shoes and makeup, and just wants to be seen. She doesn't contribute like me as a man or an some entrepreneurial woman.

She DOES spend money well however. 🤣 Yet she wants to be free. To be seen.

Sometimes, I want HER to be valuable in men's terms, to be productive, but she isn't the same. Shes something else and she bends my reality in GOOD ways.

Shes offers a feeling, thats it. But the irony is the feeling is so intense and real and novel that nothing can compare. What she offers you cant get anywhere else and you cant define it perfectly.

I asked a close friend once if she'd ever prefer to be a boy. She said with absolute certainty, a resounding NO... she expressed how powerful the freedom to "feel" is. Not be logical all the time. Not to have to be productive all the time. Not that women dont do those things, they do, but they also get a pass to just BE. Guys dont get that usually.

We have to BE something important. Be someone productive, be moving and shaking mountains or else we are useless to our peers, family, and society. We have to provide and protect. Its beautiful too, but different.

So for what its worth, SHE offers a different kind of something. A softer glow, a flowing feeling, an exotic euphoria.

I know cis-women get that and more. And not always in happy ways. But when its happy, when it flows, that undefined presence, there is nothing richer in life.

Crossdressers seek that experience and sometimes tap into it.

So trying to make something productive is simply... unproductive.

She offers a release from that pressure. Enjoy it when you can and respect it like its something special because it is special!

Thanks for reading, and I love your comments. Be thoughtful and creative when you comment, we are all under the same umbrella here and kindness goes a long way to great friendships.

With love, Juliet 🥰

Do you under-dress? Meaning... do you wear women's under garments (panties, lingerie, stockings, bras) while dressed as a man? While going to work? While mowing the lawn?

I do, every day. I think I have a couple pair of boy-shorts underwear that look enough boys briefs I could get away with it in the gym locker room. But everything else is black and white and satin and pink and playful, or some version. I even wear braletts or bras in colder weather.

How about you?

Look for part one in my profile...

This one step tutorial gives you everything you need to succeed. Are you ready...?

Here it is:

Spend ALL your money on makeup!

Thats it. Now you have the key to be a beautiful woman in the world.

Here's to your success 🥂

Juliet 🥰

Who am I? Welcome to my dual life experience.

My entire life I was taught to be authentic, to be myself, then rejected when "myself" was more than what met the norm for my family, friends, or larger society.

But Im not gonna spin some sad story of rejection. Instead I'm going to speak about acceptance, self love, and a deeper understanding about the nature of being human. And, the beauty of a dual life experience.

Its true, Im probably not the only one struggling to integrate my masculine form and my feminine form. In most ways it seems like it would be easier to just pick a side and BE that whole, authentic self. But I dont want to. I like BOTH sides of me and I dont think that's a problem.

Is there some magical integrated version thats completely understandable to me peers and family? NO! Thats the point Im making. I have loved ones that need me to be something they understand. I can do that. AND... I have an inner girl that needs some daylight. Both can exist. Its just, both can't exist at the exact same time and place. So we share the spaces.

The whole, integrated ME, is someone who holds paradox and irony without resolution. Its takes some effort but its worth it. The dual life is not a bad life. Its the most natural way for some.

There are arguments that its a sad or unhealthy way to live. I can see the reasoning. But its not conclusive or realistic to make a full integration and be one thing only. So.... two things it is. And I'm okay with that.

BTW, I journal for me, youre welcome to comment, just know that harsh judgements about right and wrong get skipped when warm, kind, empathetic thoughts are always embraced. I'm not trying to change the world here. Just documenting my own expeience and thoughts.

Juliet 🥰

Although I love this decade the most. I am totally into 60s dresses. I find that style fun. What you see in the picture is anything but. Lol.

You've seen my other posts about euphoria related to crossdressing. Once I accepted myself and embraced this side of me I have been flooded with joy many, many times. But I'd be lying if I said there were no downsides.

Here are a few...

1. Fear of being caught. Not for me specifically, but for my family who needs me to bring home the bacon. Being exposed could put my livelihood at risk and them as a result.

2. Fear of being clocked. I know I stand out. Im tall, its easy to tell im not a regular looking woman. Regardless, despite the ideal version who simply doesn't care, there is a subconscious mind running scenarios in the background all the time. The need to be validated and accepted is permeating. Being clocked could mean harassment. Although its rare, the fear is real, especially around public bathroom or dressing room environments.

3. Hiding a part of me. Some people are fortunate enough to simply not care or have no need to care about how their crossdressing will be perceived. I do care. And it means I have few friends that truly know me. Thats not unique to crossdressers it just comes with the territory.

4. Hard to find clothing and shoes that works. Ironically, its also probably not unique to crossdressing, but it comes with the territory.

5. Its expensive if you want to go all out. The cost of makeup and clothes (can't ever have enough) can get high.

6. Double life energy. Living a normal productive life is hard enough. Sometimes it feels like crossdressing is adding a whole other life. It makes sense in this regard alone as to why some people transition permanently. It can be distracting and time consuming trying to explore the femme side of my persona.

Do the benefits outlay the downsides. Well, Im here, so the answer is a resounding yes. At least for now, (things change) but at least for now, I struggle to imagine letting it all go and not allowing my Juliet some sunlight.

Thanks for reading Juliet 🥰