u/enjoymeluv

Been dealing with a lot of internalized homophobia and shame of the years for my kinks and desires. Just now letting a decent part go. While out and about I am masculine and do wanted to be treated with respect another part just wants to let go and be completely used and abused by another man.

I’m bi switch so while I do love to dominate women, trans women, and fem guys I don’t mind flipping the script and getting cock fed to me. It feels good to embrace my submissive side and not look it with weakness. Sometimes a guy just wants to let go and have someone take charge and be a slut for him.

It doesn’t make me less of a man just because I want to be a bitch in bed for him. Feels good to just embrace being me and being a good girl for him. Also love sissy hypno / captions and I own lingerie. Just need to find the right man who wants a piece of this ass.

Would love to get my freak on and be a total sub slut for the right cock but haven’t connected with anyone like that so far.

Due to internalized homophobia most of my hookups have been one offs and I’d always use protection. Be nice to meet someone to get raw dick and have him cum in me, in my mouth, and overall use me. Once I get on prep I’ll start my search.

A few weeks back I invited a guy from Grindr over to do some mutual stroking. It was almost over a year since the last time I messed around with a guy but have been constantly inserting toys into myself. I really missed the touch that another man could provide and how he could handle me. Even though I'm very a masc presenting black man with muscles I've developed a kink for sissy porn as well being submissive in general with masc men. Although I'm open to submitting and having taken twink cock as well as have gotten fucked by a trans woman.

When he came over we talked for a few minutes and then he made his move on me. I like when men take initiative because with women it's always up to me. Soon enough we were making out and like a good little slut I got completely naked for him and straddled him on my couch. I have a nice fat ass so he proceed to smack and grab it as we made it. He was surprisingly dominant and I love my neck getting licked / sucked and he applied a lot of pressure there. In fact when I felt too overwhelmed and tried to back up he wouldn't let me go. If I put in some effort I could have put a stop to it but I figured I'd like him be in control.

After a few minutes on I bring him to my bed. We continue to make out and he continues to suck my neck and explore my body. He then gets behind spits on his finger and penetrates me for the first time that night. He mentions to get inside and could tell he wanted to explore my hole further so I hand him my lube and now he is really going to town. I'm softly moaning and like a good top he is checking on me to see if I'm enjoying it. I tell him yes and he slips another finger inside me. He is talking to me nasty and I'm talking right back to him. I'm calling him baby and telling him how much I want him to take me. How I want to please him. He tells me be a good bitch for me and I say I will. He calls me a good boy a few times which didn't really do much for me. I prefer being called a good girl when another man is handling me.

He then tells me are you enjoying daddy and I simply reply yes. That's not what he wanted to hear though so he goes huh. I say yes again and he goes no yes daddy. I repeat it and he goes huh two more times just so he can hear me call him daddy again and again the rest of the night. At this point this man is my daddy and I'm putty in his hand. Eventually I ask if he is into men wearing lingerie and he says he is open to it and to put something on for him. I go change into some lace lingerie that really hugs my body and compliments my ass and I bend over for him and let him get a taste. It was turning out to be an amazing night but all good things must come to an end. As he is telling me he needs to head out soon I walk with him to the bathroom where after he washes his hands he tell me to turn and face the wall and put both hands on it. He smacks my ass some more and then tell me to "shake that ass for me" and I reply "yes daddy" and proceeded to shake it for him. I was so turned on and he had me leaking. He then grabs me and pushes me up against my sink and tells me how he can't get his hands off me.

We didn't fuck that night but I wanted him inside me and wanted him to have his way with me. I've noticed whenever I have a good toy session I am so incredibly relaxed. That night submitted to him and having him play with my hole I was in a complete trance. As he is leaving he tugs me dick to have me walk a few steps make out with me then rinse and repeat. Once he is at the door he fully shoves his tongue down my throat which wasn't enjoyable but I let daddy do what he wanted. We say our goodbyes and I pass out on my bed with my mouth tasting like his. The next day I did feel some type of way because I felt emasculated. I like this man kiss my neck and when I tried to move he wouldn't let me. I let him grab my throat. I let him command me to shake my ass. I let him move my hand away when I tried to touch my dick. I let him be daddy for the night. Now that it's a few weeks removed those thoughts aren't as strong and now I just get off at the fact that another man had his way with me like that. I'm definitely open to meeting someone who I can trust and is consistent to give me my first bareback cock and to cum inside me. I want to be a slut for him and give him the pleasure he deserves. I want his cock in the back of my throat and for him to make me to take it. I want to wake him up in the morning with a nice wet mouth and then let him take me. I want to bounce that ass for him and be a good little slut puppet for him. I want him to feminize me a be his little bitch like I was for daddy that night. I want him to spit in my mouth and shove his finger down my throat. I want to swallow him and suck out all his yummy cum. I'm excited and nervous to explore this side of me but I know I can take it like a good girl.