I [42F] am ready to take this to the next level with my husband [42M]
Let me start off by saying I absolutely love my husband, he is my world and I would never want to hurt him. He was my first and only everything, first love, first kiss, first lover. Second off, i'm not a great writter but wanted to tell our story so far.
He is a tall 6'3 240lbs, muscular but with a bit of a dad bod. I am a 6'0 BBW with very large 44GG breasts. For a while now we have been having a little problem where he isnt staying hard. We start fooling around, he is nice and hard, then a few minutes laterr i can feel it going soft. We end up finishing eachother with our mouths or hands, which is nice, but after a while the frustration started to build, i just wanted to feel him hard inside me for more than 30 seconds. It started to really mess with my self confidence.
I finally sat him down and tried to have an open conversation with him about it. He got defensive at first but finally admitted that he thinks its because he masterbates too much. He also admitted that sometimes he jerks off up to 4 times a day. I wont get into all the details but we agreed that he would work on cutting back on masterbating and until his problem stops, we could play with some toys in the bedroom. We had tried a dildo earlier in our relationship but he got a little jealous of how i responded with it.
I ordered a new dildo online. My husband is pretty big when fully hard, around 7-7.5 inches, I ended up buying one a little bigger than him and very realalistic looking and feeling.
Our first time using it was the following weekend. Everything started like nornal, he gets on top of me, and slides into me. I moan loudly, his hard cock starts to scratch that itch. But it doesnt last long, I'm not feeling him as deep, then I'm not really feeling him at all as he slips out. He offers to go down on me but i tell him i have a better idea. I reach into my nightstand where i was hiding it. We had talked about getting one but he didnt know i took the initiative and bought one without him. I lay on my back and rub the tip against my pussy, getting it nice and wet. I ended up grabbing lube and coating it, worried about its size. I look my husband in the eyes as is start to work it into me. On paper it was only a little bigger than hubby, but damn did it feel bigger. I closed my eyes and and slowly worked more and more of it into me. Hubby started feeling my tits and i was in heaven. I finally got to a point where i could start really fucking myself with it. I tell my hubby to be harder with my nipples but he isnt giving me what i need so i move his hand away and start pinching and twisting them myself.
I can feel him next to me slowly rubbing his cock while he watched me, but in that moment he might as well have been a million miles away, I was enjoying finally getting fucked too much, even if it was with a fake cock.
But then hubby pissed me off, im holding my nipple, twisting it hard between my fingers, im lost in the bliss when suddenly i feel his hand around my wrist, he yanks it away from my tit and places it on his cock., expecting me to jack him off. He completly took me out of my moment and i was annoyed. I pulled my hand away and said, "you like jacking off so much, you can just do that. watch me and jack off like you are watching one of your gross porns". I went back to what i was doing, knowing he was touching himself while he watched me get fucked by this dildo like one of the sluts in the videos he watches. He can look but cant touch, like I'm on the other side of a screen. These thoughts drove me crazy as i started fucking myself harder, picturing a faceless muscular man pounding me while my husband watched. I came harder than i had in a long time. I finally pulled it out and laid there catching my breath, i look over and see hubby furiously masterbating. I don't know what came over me, i always feel akward doing any kind of dirty talk, but i started encouraging him to cum. Telling him i know how much he wants to touch me but he cant, that he is going to cum from watching me get off on a hard cock. He ended up shooting his load all over himself.
This awoke something in me, I started love being his personal porn star. Over the last few months we have gone deeper and deeper into the fantasy. We have purchased more toys and they have names. I call the dildo by name and act like its a real person. I made a deal with hubby that he would stop masterbating to anyone but me and in exchange i would put on nightly shows for him. I cought him jerking off once after this deal and now i have him in chastity during the day.
Sometimes I feel like i might be taking this too far but I have never felt so sexy and turned on before, and hubby seems to be enjoying himself... most the time. I have "accidentally" left the key to his cage at work a couple times which didnt stop me from having my fun with my toys.
Well, thats my story. I would love to hear from people ideas of what i could do to push this further. I like the fantasy of fully cuckolding him but dont know if i could ever actually go through with it.