i'm stopping with kratom addiction and realizing that i can't be sober
I'm addicted to kratom and currently tapering off of it. I'm on 7g a day right now. I know most of you probably won't know how much that is, but for someone addicted, it's really not that much (at my max I was doing roughly 25g a day).
But as I've lowered the dose, I've started getting bored more often, more annoyed, and just feeling empty. I also noticed that I'm smoking more weed than ever. I've even started drinking more, done some ketamine and molly, and a few other things. It feels like I'm just trying to fill the sobriety with anything I can.
It's okay when I'm busy and doing something, but when I'm not doing anything it starts to feel unbearable at times. I don't know how I'll be able to do it without any kratom at all. It really blows my mind how most people stay completely sober for most of their lives.
I don't know if it's because I'm young and I'll grow out of it, or if my dopamine system is just fried from the kratom. If anyone has any suggestions or advice, please let me know.