u/ked0h

when i first started taking drugs i didnt have friends really. only classmates that i liked. But my brain craved those bonds and so i thing that i just replaced real bonds with drugs. For example my best friend were benzos - conforted meand time i needed it. When i needed to take something off my chest i would take rivotril and then i just didnt need anything :d And my first love? - GHB i actually loved that drug, i felt Butterflyes when i took it. I took it at night and wold masturbate on it. I would skip school just to take it. Any body has similar experience? --- sorry for my english

im 20 and since i was like 15 all i was intrested in were drugs. Since then i did almost every drug that exist. Now all my dealers are locked up or are in some mental health institution. So i dont even have a dealer - that is a good thing i guess. Or maybe not becouse now my doctor is my dealer, he over prescribe like crazy and im hooked on pharma drugs. The problem is that i dont enjoy anything else. Anybody with the same problem? What do i do? Everything else is boring and lame to me. I also dont have any friendes and im unemployed. I guess im just fucked. Feel free to ask any questions about my life.