u/kello3gb

I'm really confused because I am so attracted to men on the screen, but not so much in real life. I have been with one guy and didn't have a great time so I convinced myself I'm straight but I consistently have gay fantasies. I'm married now but sometimes I think I just need to get a divorce so I can be a sissy. I'm so confused because I don't want to blow up my life over porn, but I feel like it's an intense sexual desire. Am I being stupid?