[vent] Vetting sucks
Feeling so fucking defeated - I’ve been trying to vet this guy I’ve been speaking to for a while and now I’m realizing it may not work the way I thought it would. Now I’m upset because I had my expectations so high :( I felt like we had a good natural chemistry and an attraction to one another, like I really thought I was finally going to have my first Daddy finally.
I’m trying my best to be brave and strong for myself. I know I have to keep myself safe first. I want to trust the person I’m giving myself to, and I’m sticking to it the best I can even though I really wanna cry. Actually I am crying about it to be honest. I have a fairly good idea of who I’m looking for, how I want to play, and this guy was pushing and shoving into a box I wasn't ready for.
At the end of the day I need to remember he wasn't listening to my needs, wasn't taking it at my speed, and wasn't giving me clear communication. So on to the next one I guess :(