u/lovemywife173

Hope this comes across ok and helps any guys who are in in a similar place to where I was a few months ago ..

Brief history .. guess I’ve always know I’ve had an attraction to men , probably most of my adult life .. right to back to my teens in the late 80’s.. most of these thoughts were kept on the back burner so got married, family etc and carried on as a regular straight guy ..

internet came along in the 2000’s .. I occasionally dabbled in looking at gay porn but always told myself I was straight so left it for a while then would always return again later ..

These thoughts / feelings bubbled on for years .. on / off looking at gay porn, guess it intensified as my sex life with my wife drifted off ..

Jump forward to 2025, no sex or proper relationship with my wife for about 7 years ..

Porn, predominantly gay was taking over me, thoughts of sex with men , wanting to wear panties, wanting to shave my body and wanting to use anal sex toys was what I thought about.. a lot .!

I did secretly buy a dildo to use .. and did enjoy it ..

Well in the end .. it happened, wife’s are good at suspecting.. I had to hand over my phone .. all was exposed ..!

It was make or break time for our marriage, it took sometime to confess / talk about everything .. but in the it all came out ..

Must say .. best thing that ever happened..

Now .. 9 months later .. this is how we are ..

Our love for each other has grown and grown , we both have a box of sex toys , i shave all over as I love a smooth body, my wife will help, I enjoy wearing panties at any opportunity, we can talk about anything.. sex, sexual desires , bi , gay , sexy men, sexy women ..

I cannot say how grateful I am to her understanding, respect and the overall love she has given me ..

I do understand I’ll probably never engage in sex with a man but I do believe I have enough fulfilment to stay 100% committed and faithful to my wife .

I know it’s a bit of a ramble, but I hope it can help any guys who are in a mess mentally like I was ..❤️