🩷 My Journey 🩷
Growing up, my weight was a constant battle. I was a chubby kid, but worked out like crazy in high school and college to stay thin. I was still curvy, but still would have been considered skinny by most. Then I graduated and got married. The weight piled on fast.
Within the first two years of our marriage, I gained nearly 80 pounds, going from 120 to just over 200. I tried to fight it, but my new less active lifestyle combined with my deep love of food, made it nearly impossible. I just kept getting bigger.
My husband was not a fan. He was constantly on my case about "getting back in shape". I was reminded that I should go to the gym more or eat less. If I had a dollar for each time I heard, "Are you sure you should eat that?" I could have bought my own McDonald's franchise by now. This tension, combined with a number of other issues, led to us separating at the end of 2024.
After the separation, I tried to lose weight. I thought if I was going to be back on the market, I should be "at my best". I was able to lose 20 pounds, but I was miserable. I missed food. I missed eating what I wanted when I wanted. Eventually, I gave up and the weight came back. I'm now back my highest weight ever.
I'm exhausted. I'm tired of the fight. The battle has worn me down. I just want to let go, give in, and be myself. If I gain weight, I gain weight. I want to love myself regard of what the scale says. Heck, I want to love myself more if the scale says there is more to love.
And, as crazy as this might sound, I would love to meet a bigger guy or a guy who is okay gaining weight. It would be such an amazing feeling to know that I'm not alone in these feelings. I want us to both be able to enjoy food and live life to the fullest. All that to say, if that's you... Please drop me a message!