I think my husband is a cuck
Our sex life has always been an issue in our marriage. My husband is low libido, we rarely have sex and has a lot of shame and anxiety around sex. I tried for over ten years to get him to open up, share fantasies and just let loose. But he was just so awkward and closed up.
Things started happening when I admitted to having a crush on one of his friends. He almost immediately began teasing me about it. How I probably am excited to see him. He would always bring him up and refer to him as my crush. Things started escalating the last couple of months. Awhile back I even asked him if the idea of me having sex with other men turns him on. He denied it but later said that the idea of watching me have sex with other men sounds interesting. In the meantime his comments kept escalating.. He made a comment that do I think about his friend when we have sex. At the time I was uncomfortable and pissed off that he said it but the fact he said it also turned me on, a lot. He also made a comment about me bringing condoms if I was alone with his friend. I was uncomfortable in the moment but only because I was instantly horny at the thought. He doesn’t know this throughout this but I have been watching a lot of cuckhold porn.
The other night I told him that I wanted to try some light domming of him and set up safe words. I was so nervous because like I said my husband is so closed off and awkward about sex and he already has a lot of shame about himself. I didn’t want to say anything that hurt him or went too far but he can deny all he wants but the signals were there and I know he has this inside of him. So I gave him an amazing handjob and told him how he doesn’t deserve my pussy. How I’m insatiable and want every other cock but his and want their cum inside me but not his. And I made him be vocal (which this man is so quiet during sex) and the sounds he made were so hot. Sounds I never heard from him before, and his cock was so hard. Even afterwards he tried to play it off like it was just okay but I know he loved it, his cock didn’t lie. I know he was just embarrassed being so turned on at the thought of his wife being with other men.
I tried again last night and same thing, he was so vocal and he even dirty talked when he touched me. Which I know is hard for him and basically I’m so proud of him for finally opening up. He made me so happy and fully satisfied for probably the first time in our marriage. I only ever wanted to be desired, and for our sex to be playful and fun.. and knowing that deep down he’s this submissive boy who just wants to please and that he gets so horny by being a cuck turns me on. I’m turned on by his embarrassment and turned on the more he lets his walls down.
Obviously I’m just taking things slow and roleplaying in the bedroom, but honesty I feel like our sex life is going to explode for the first time in our marriage. I’ve waited ten years for this.