the frustration of being a masochist during solo play
i love being a masochist, but it gets really frustrating kapag solo play lang ☹️ but at the same time, i also love doing it alone. it is a combined feeling of frustration and absolute pleasure.
whenever mag ccross ako ng legs (as my form of solo play) at kapag malapit na me mag-climax.... bro i literally grope myself, pinch and hatak my tits, and recently, nilamutak ko na pati mukha ko with matching sabunot sa hair hahaha putangina. i miss the actual physical pain, the slaps, and the choking hahah. hindi na talaga siya nakakatuwa ☹️
but what makes it so intense is i have voice kink. i listen to audios of sadists/hard doms habang ginagawa ko 'to. combined with that, sobrang crazy and frustrating talaga when your body is craving that specific type of stimulation at your highest point of pleasure, but you're alone and you have to resort to inflicting pain on yourself just to satisfy the urge.
hay nako, just wanted to put this out there. it's comforting eh noh? to know how our bodies work, even if it gets overwhelming and frustrating sometimes.