29 [M4F] #Colorado #Online - Subby boy looking for mommy
M4F
What I’m looking for –
Long term, I’m kind of looking for a monogamous mommydom kind of thing. I mean, I am an adult and can take care of myself, but I do want someone who would provide that opportunity for me to let down my walls and open up to, be vulnerable around. But I also want a friend, a partner in life who I can connect with beyond just the dynamic. But that takes time, and I wouldn’t mind someone to just talk to without expectations. I would like to meet irl eventually but I'm also perfectly fine with online for the time being.
I’m kind of looking for a balanced dynamic, I like giving up control and submitting to a partner, but I also enjoy playing a more masculine role. I want to be able to do what I do well, making you feel safe and secure, listening to your problems and worries, fixing whatever you need me too. But I would also like someone who supports me where I need it, someone who can help me express my feelings, show my vulnerability, learn to be more sensitive. In return, I want to make you feel appreciated, feel like your effort isn’t just lost in the void, that it means the world to somebody.
To be honest, I’m not looking for anything 24/7 or anything like that. ABDL and MDLB type dynamics are something I enjoy, but I also enjoy more traditional dynamics as well. Sometimes I like being the masculine type, but I also sometimes want to curl up with you and watch a movie as you pat my diapered bottom. Sometimes I want to be the big strong man who will lift the heavy stuff for you, sometimes I want to be the bratty little boy who insists he’s too old for diapers.
About me -
I’m from Colorado, I'm 29, 6’3” with a large build that makes people think I’m taller than I am really am, bit chubby atm (I love working from home but it’s really killing me in that department).
Personality-wise, I'm not really sure how I'd describe myself, it always feels kind of vain to try. Around people I don't really know I'm pretty reserved and shy, but around my friends/family, I'm, I don’t know, pretty playful and dry-humored and sarcastic I guess, but overall, I just try my best to get along with everyone. I love to help those around me with whatever they need, even if it's just providing an outlet for people to vent. Other than that, I'm generally pretty chill/mellow, I don't really get too worked about anything and try to just take things as they come. I can be kind of lazy and unmotivated sometimes, which is kind of why I like a mommydom type of figure, someone who I know won’t let me skate by with the bare minimum, someone who will hold me to a higher standard. And tbh, as said, I just like doing things for people. I like when people ask me for help or ask me to do something. It just feels good.
Anyway, in general my interests are kind of nerdy, playing videos games and reading/watching fantasy/sci-fi or history documentaries, that kind of thing, but other than that I really enjoy cooking and on occasion I like to do some model building/painting. Other than that, I can't wait to get back outside and do some camping/hiking. I really enjoy getting away from it all sometimes and spending time outdoors out in the mountains, especially since most of my interests and my job are technology related (I’ve been working in software engineering). I wouldn’t say that I’m particularly passionate about it, but I take pride in doing my job as best I can, and that’s fulfilling enough).
Kink-wise I'm pretty open and interested in a lot of things. Other than ABDL, I enjoy kinks like joi, body worship, spanking (big on spanking, probably my first kink that kind of led me into ABDL), humiliation, mommy-dom, and am curious about a lot more like bondage, but that's far from an exhaustive list. I just like the dynamic of being teased and embarrassed by someone like a head shorter than me, I try to act like the big man but deep down I kind of just want to be the small spoon, the cute little baby. I'm pretty open to try most things though, and my interests aren’t hard requirements or anything, just things I like. My hard limits would be things like anything with blood, anything in public. Oh, also, I don't really have too much experience either, but I think learning can be the best part.