[M4F] Love - an unhealthy dependency.
Oscar Wilde said the only way to beat temptation is to yield to it, else your soul is marred by the shadow of what could have been. Or something like that. I am hazy on the semantics of it. What I am not hazy about is.. I am looking at you. Or at least want to look at you. How could I not. You drip.. no, not 'sex appeal'. You do, but not nearly as much as the other thing. You drip.. malevolence. Sexy, elegant malevolence. I saw the guest list, yes. And I was fascinated by your name, of course. The name to put it on the map.. without undermining the attention from the gallery itself. How clever!
However, in real time, it feels anything but. About 18 different people have talked to me about you. 2 even apologized. Like your presence is derogatory, your existence a curse. Talk about a perfect muse! I don't even care if you are misunderstood. You are but a person to me. Just one more of another humans I didn't care about until now. What I do love is the potential in you.
My gaze inadvertently hovers around to you. How could it not!
I find you looking. Staring. Your eyes are flirty in how bottomless they are. I am not surprised one bit by your brashness, but simply by the fact I of all people caught your fancy. Or your interest for your next bout of serial killing. Potato-potatoh. But my penchant for romanticism is high, and honestly.. I would like a piece of art that's tangible, vocal, and maybe potentially.. receptive to pain.
The stare digs into me. Perhaps Oscar Wilde did have a point. I excuse myself from my immediate guest, and bring myself and my glass of champagne towards you. My heart is frigid, but my walk is slow. Calm and restrained, like I am paying for each step. Maybe in hindsight, I will. But that's what I came here for, didn't I. To spend money on art. The more obedient the art is, the better.
"This one is my favorite." I stand beside you and say it to the painting in front. You consider yourself special. Perhaps deservedly so. But your ego can do without further fanning. I don't need to treat you special, and I am sure there's nothing I can say to you about your past achievements and present turmoil that someone already hasn't.
"I suppose the painting isn't half bad either." You had to flirt, Avery! The only telling bit of your age is your elegance. Gosh, you are beautiful up close, I will give you that!
The painting is a copy of 'The Corpses of the de Witt Brothers'. Of all the art to talk to you beside, for crying out loud. "They look like bacon." I frown teasingly and turn briefly to look at you. I giggle. "Maybe it's the champagne. You haven't been drinking I noticed. Maybe you can provide a better perspective, huh?" I continue. "I am Avery by the way. Not that you asked."
Stuck up. Pent up. Fucked up. Of course everyone knows you - but 'celebrity' seems to move on quick. And well, at an innocuous gallery opening afternoon like this - the elites are a little too old and stiff upper lip for you… good for a payday and a handbag but that was about it, and you were lonnnng past that. They were all too emotionally-stunted to feed on. Too soulless to exploit.
They won't understand what it is like to be layered, to be fabulous, to be the center of the fucking universe! I would.
You shall be notorious. I would be hooked - a tortured artist - one of those people who are incredibly famous without being famous at all. On the lookout for his muse. An inspiration so divine, you might just kill me alive. Or perhaps, you might enjoy dragging me into limelight, kicking and screaming.
Maybe in this play my character meets his match - or his better? And well, while in a lot of ways that’s good, I really don’t think it’s entirely healthy for my character to become her obsession.
I really like the idea of an innocuous start - maybe us bumping into each other at an exhibition/dinner/gala and well, learning that obsession at first sight is a real thing. We wouldn’t have to jump straight into full horrorcore from there though, maybe a little chase. See how much I want you. Crave you. You shall be bipolar, toxic, my ruination - but by then, I would already be addicted.
I love playing with very dark themes (and levels of consent) but honestly enjoy twisted romance, affection and humour just as much. So having a ‘public side’ to our relationship and a very, very private side appeals big time. Private until the rumours start that is, or until we crash and burn Bonnie and Clyde-style :P).
You’ll be the best worst muse I could ever want.
But he will cherish being hers. I will let you decide at what point do you want your character to start giving in to the heady romance, if ever, when we do actually play scenes like that. Unless you want our start itself to be sinister. I want to know how you wish to start. A hook-up turned more, an acquaintance losing his marbles with her, or just a stranger she met at a party turned perverse. Tell me how you eventually see it progress. Are we equally corrupt and perverse? Are you an overwhelming handful? Or is it me who captures your essence, physical and visceral?
My kinks are peril, pain and predicament. Be a fucking psychopathic partner to me!
I want you to play someone who might reflect the narcissist tendencies well, yet be gullible to the charm of a hot young thing - a man with layers and charm.
For a muse as tumultuous as this, I would love to include a celebrity aspect. I have a list of celebrity names I adore to include in this but I am open to suggestions! Of course not every name in there commands the same fervor and penchant for crazy. Regardless, I wanna play with the actual female celebrity and not merely a faceclaim.
I am 18+ and all participants must be 18+ too.