Dear community,
Just had a session with a south Indian guy in ahmedabad,
3 hours back, i don't know how I'm feeling right now.
His name was mavrick. And he is really a most gentle man / dom i have ever met. I was afraid of meeting a stranger. And he doesn't believe in conversation. It was me who communicated. I was a sub and he was dom then also he did what I asked for. He bit my nipples and ears. And use a skipping rope to spank my ass. He grabbed my dick and ball so hard that I used safe words in a few seconds. And i disappointed him. I didn't give him a bj. Or handjob.. he was following my order. And his dick my gosh.. that 6.5 inch big bulky dick.. i have just seen such a beast in porn only.. and me like a shameless slut i walk away. In my mind i am a cheap slut. But actually i am a spoiled brat. He was sadist but broke. Just because he was not having an AC and a clean room I judged him. Like i(a cheap whore) in my mind but acted like rich Brat.
Now i am feeling guilty. I really wish that he had fuckme hard. Or at least i have given him a good bj.. just because he was not having AC and clean room i walked out like a shameless person. Then too he didn't say anything. He greeted me like a normal guy..
I think as a sub (sissy) i am a disappointing person.
In the back of my mind or in my imagination i want to be captive in the dungeon and be a ragdoll for strangers, a fuck doll. But in reality I am not at all a sub..
Like in my imagination i can let 5 guys hang me to the ceiling and torcher me with a cigarette, belt and zapper and when it comes to really i can' t even kiss a stranger dick.. such a shame on me...