I just created the account as I'm obviously going to use a throwaway for this.
So yeah, im totally blind. I was born with leber congenital amarousis which has made me blind but nobody could tell from my appearance, I look identical to any other pretty Russian woman. I'm also lucky enough to not have nystagmus or sunken eyes but my photo phobia light sensitivity is getting worse.
I find my brother incredibly hot even though I can't technically see him. His voice is the perfect pitch his hands are big and rough but like not too much to the way I feel safe when he holds onto me more than anything.
He also knows how to interact with me and guide me without treating me like a child which is something most people seriously struggle with even my parents sometimes xxxxx I mean he doesn't grab onto me when we're going up stairs or through crowded areas he just tells me what to expect where we're walking so I don't feel like a child or like he thinks I'm stupid. When I have the dog or the walking stick he doesn't really do that at all and treats me like he treats anyone else.
When I do ask he does guide me physically by either putting a hand on my back or lower back (I like that by the way xxxx) or by letting me hold onto his arm and guiding me that way (sometimes I pretend to be confused or lost when I'm actually not so he touches me or let's me hold onto his arm) so I feel like he just treats me the best abd knows ne the best of anyone except I guess my best friends.
I've also touched his stomach and chest before and felt how muscular and toned his body is. He's also quite a bit taller than me (i'm pretty short for a russian woman).
Also, last thing and the main reason I find him so attractive, I have a friend who used to date him and she told me about some of the times they did "it" (not in much detail and when she was mostly joking, she's not a freak) but she told me that he has a certain well above average body part ))) and when I heard that I was kind of trembling xxxx I hope she didn't notice ×D
Now when I see him I have to resist the urge to touch him below the belt and it's sorta frustrating knowing I likely won't because he's dating a woman.(not the one that told me about him being bigger xxx) but a woman can dream... abd yes I've touched myself imagining it was him....
Anyway, before anybody asks I type on my laptop by memorizing where each key is in proximity to the "a" and "o" keys (I think for you guys it would be the "f" and "j" keys) and I have a software that reads back any key I press out Loud so I can catch any mistakes that way too and ut can read back the entire for me too which is neat but if I'm lazy and want to sit through it reading it back in a robotic ugly voice I just AI to clean it up, which is a new thing I'm trying. So I apologize for any errors as it's the AI's fault then )))
Also advice is wanted!