22 M. Need someone to genuinely respond to my post. I want to make friends and more
Hii
Atul here
I am from 'Himachal' a beautiful northern montane region in India.
I am 5' 7", 64 kg or 143 lbs, athletic build, slim tone.
I am currently pursuing ug in uni and looking for military(air force) or masters in Environmental Science to further become environmental
lawyer in near future.
I am a NEURODIVERGENT suffering from AUDHD. I also have OCD which is both sweet or sour at times. I have suffered a lot with it in the past not knowing that I was a neurodivergent and it has been hell living among people till these last couple of months. I had to learn a lot about neuroscience before coming to this conclusion (i have self diagnosed it). Ever since I learned about my condition, everything fell into its place as if they were some puzzle pieces.
I am handling NEURODIVERGENCE with cbt and trying controlling my DOPAMINE levels throughout the day(in which I fail brutally many times). I am severely off drugs but I do take poly phenols, flavanoids, antioxidants from specific food sources, processing them my own created style to meet my requirements(did a lot of research).
I love reading fiction(love harry potter, lotr), learning about technology, formula 1, cooking, learning culinary expertise, playing simulator, open world type video games, etc.
I am always interested in topics like medical science, biology, psychology, philosophy, astrophysics, astronomy, chemistry(love playing with chemicals(make my own soaps and perfumes)), etc.
I also love to talk about nature, hugely fascinated about scenic views. I always learn about it and how to preserve it.
I love trekking, hiking, almost everything that one can do with nature. Basically due to my condition I can't go social with people as my behaviour is strictly controlled by my condition and past traumas. So I like to enjoy nature, mostly alone(i hate society and anything related to it).
I try to make healthy relations with people but as I don't disclose my condition, they don't like my quirks so I prefer company with close friends but every time I get close to someone we have to get apart for reasons.
So in the end I get lonely and that feels horrible.
That's all me so far.