That's it, you fuckers have broken me completely
35M here.
I've gone from no gay experiences until last year to meeting a random guy from Grindr in a mall toilet (a clean one!). I dropped to my knees without saying a word, and sucked his gorgeous cock like a little slut; I let him grab my head with his big manly hands, thrusting in my mouth, flooding it with cum as he moaned, and leaving me there without saying a word.
I hoped it would scratch the itch. It did the opposite. It made me horny as hell. I kept browsing this sub, drooling over all these gorgeous cocks, wanting to taste cum again.
I ended up going to a sex club in London where, although I felt really nervous, I sucked off two other random guys. I went to the gloryhole and sucked two cocks one after the other as they popped through the hole. No cum this time. In the darkroom I fell to my knees and sucked off two men at the same time as they kissed.
I had been totally straight until 5 months earlier. What the actual fuck.
After I left, I kept browsing this sub and dreaming about serving cocks and pleasing men. I wanted to submit, to be taken in the most degrading way possible. I went from "I'm only attracted to cocks, not men" to planning my return to the sex club to get fucked in the ass. I kept fantasising about getting into the sling and letting anyone who walked by ravage my hungry hole. I started to see myself as a set of holes for men's pleasure.
But today I felt the gayest I've ever felt so far, and that's how I realised that you fuckers have broken me completely. I no longer dream only of BDSM, humiliation and disembodied cocks pummeling my bitch buzzer. Today for the first time I actually fantasized about having romantic sex with a man. Feeling his warm body on top of mine, his semi-hard cock lying on my stomach. His strong, gentle but firm arms guiding his cock to my asshole and slowly opening me up. I imagine his body, his eyes, his voice. not just his cock. I want the full-body experience, the hugging, the gentle penetration, the passionate fucking, the aftercare. I've never felt like that for a man.