u/thhrowawaayyyyyyyyyy

I’m bi and married and never did anything with guys but recently I feel like the only thing that really turns me on is gay porn. Our sex life has always been fairly vanilla and it’s honestly kind of not as exciting anymore. I’ve always watched porn and it’s always been more straight porn than gay porn but the fact that gay sex feels taboo rather than “natural” like PIV. Pair that with the fact that hooking up with guys is apparently more “quick and dirty” and no string attached and hooking up with women is more gatekept and women are tougher to please and it just adds to me fetishizing gay sex.

I know a lot will say, “well it just sounds like you’re gay” but I have zero emotional attraction to men and I wouldn’t just tear apart our marriage over this to go sleep around. Also, I know I may just be idealizing gay sex since I’ve heard vaginal feels better and I think the average women is more attractive than the average man, it’s just like I said, the fact that I will most likely never have gay sex is also what makes me almost salivate over it.

I know it’s a lot but I needed to get it off my chest. Anyone been in a similar situation?