I'm new to it, and had seen several posts suggesting you could use it pretty frequently, then stumbled across a figgin ton of posts about people developing HPPD from it... I mean I know excessive use of anything is never the best bet... curious about people's experiences.
So i have considerable intermittent/somewhat rare experience with various stims, although it has still been a bunch of times over the years, and it had been a while, until this past Saturday night, when I had a ridiculous blowout solo session smoking more crack than I ever have at once.
And for the past 2 days I have been feeling like dog shit, so taking some "pressed adderall" (meth) pills to try to get through the day, which unfortunately has been mostly just causing a state of significant stimulation, without any euphoria or mood boost, which has been uncomfortable and creating some significant anxiety.
So let's assume this is because I essentially nuked my brain chemistry with all the ridiculous many huge crack hits Saturday night.
I don't suppose anyone might have any kind of ballpark idea how long that might take to reset to where I get some kind of decent effect from these pills? Really kind of hoping that would fall into the "days" range rather than "weeks"
So i've got some decent experience with these types of substances, although fairly sporadic and none in a very long time.
Smoked crack last Saturday night for the first time in years, it was a solo binge, and was the most i've ever smoked at once... and honestly was pretty rugged and left me feeling pretty fucked... obviously
So i get up the next morning and obviously feel like dog shit, but it's Mother's Day, and i've got plans at Mom's house. And i've got a couple things laying around that I think could pick me up and get me through it...
What i had was "pressed adderall" off the internet, which i know are meth and had tested them, and some imitation xanax bars, which had tested negative for fentanyl, positive for benzos, and had tried a half the week before' as well as a whole one after smoking all the crack, and they seemed reasonably effective for what they're supposed to do.
So back to Mother's Day morning. I really felt like I needed something. I started with 1/2 of one of the adderall (which are marked 30 but not taking much stock in that)... waited an hour and took the other half...
I ended up feeling just a pretty strong stimulation without any of the good feels, so pretty uncomfortable, and so then I took half a bar of that benzo, and ended up getting through the Mother's Day dinner, and feeling pretty decent for most of it.. put in a good 4 hours, but when the benzo started wearing off I was getting really uncomfortable and had to make my farewells, and with some sudden urgency.
Then this morning is back to work after a more drug fueled weekend than i've had in ages, I already struggle with pretty bad bouts of anxiety, and I was gonna try to just chill and play it safe, but decided I was in rough shape and needed something
So i started with 1/4 bar before heading out for work... a 1/2 hour later i'm driving to work and deciding i feel really pretty sketchy with the anxiety level, and really need something more, so I take another 1/4 bar and a half of a pressed addy, and kind of feeling like all that should help, and generally feeling good that I took them.
Fast forward and here I am at work, and once again, the pressed addy, even just the half, seems to be causing more of just a stimulation without the good feels, which again makes it kind of uncomfortable.
Long story short (too late/sorry)... my first assumption would be that the reason i'm not getting the nicer mood effects from the addies, is because of the ridiculous and probably devastating crack blowout 2 nights ago... To anyone who actually read all this, does that seem like the most likely explanation? My only other thought is that i could be coming in below the threshold for good feels with the addies, but i'm at work right now and probably shouldn't test that theory as tempting as it might be.