19 [F4M] these are my thoughts, dont juddge me, down to eartth cool and i need a fellla.
i didn’t realize how much attention changes people until i started noticing the little things 😭
somebody starts replying quicker than usual. they suddenly care who you’re talking to. they act casual but you can literally feel the jealousy underneath everything they say.
and honestly the boys pretending they care the least always end up caring the hardest.
the possessive ones. the overthinkers. the boys replaying conversations in bed while acting completely calm the next day like nothing happened 😭
that kind of tension honestly gets in my head way more than normal flirting now.
especially late at night when everybody stops pretending as much.
and yeah porn definitely changed my brain too because now softer femdomm, clingy cucckk boys, gooning, possessive energy, virgins secretly craving nonstop attention, and late night peggging thoughts honestly stay on my mind all the time 😭
plus i’m not even gonna lie anymore… i genuinely love bbc dildos way more than i probably should.
most nights it’s just low music, dark rooms, random thoughts, and my brain disappearing into jealousy, possessiveness, and people secretly spiraling while pretending they’re perfectly fine