Is this guilt or revenge
So i am 30M, i was in relationship with girl since 8th standard. I am shy kind and she is hyper active. Because of her activeness every male including faculty used to flirt with her. She enjoyed that attention. But never confronted my insecurities to her.
And in 10th standard an event organised for 10th class students as we will be attending board exams. In that event many openly flirted with her. During this event we were divided into multiple groups and when I tried to join her group she denied saying wardens and staff are noticing us. So it’s better stay separate groups. But I can see it’s just an excuse she is even giving hints to other people who flirting with her by laughing by falling on him etc etc. back then I was so vulnerable.
Later during 10th holidays break she completely avoided my calls and during +1 and +2 my school cum college agreed that students can carry mobiles but we should deposit it in office and we can use it sundays. One Sunday I took her mobile casually and checked the chats and I realised one thing. I am just a label or coverup to her as her boy friend but behind my back she is running a different story. Sexting with my seniors, her cousin and couple of guys from same class.
I confronted her and she begged she never repeat this again and I too forgave her. Cut to BTech we both settled in different cities. So usually fights, and we broke up. Within 15 days she got a new boyfriend and after 3 months they broke up and she called me crying saying she gave him everything including virginity but he dumped her. She wanted me back. I consoled her i said ok but due to long distance relationship she was posting pics with another guy. I checked comments and it’s like new couple in the college, nice couple etc. I asked her and she said they both are just friends and when I asked about the comments she opened up. Her ex is harassing her so she need someone to protect her. So he is her boyfriend right now. I asked what about me ? She said I am her true love. I understood I am being played. She playing with my emotions and broke up with her and blocked her by all means.
After 4 years she called me with new number. She spoke casually and in moment she cried and apologised. She said she made a huge mistake by taking me granted. I was in Bangalore back then and she was in Mumbai. From then just normal messages and I said I am going to hyd for a meeting and it’s happening in Leonal Resort. To surprise she was there the moment I reached.
I attended meeting and she was working. At night we were drinking and i wanted to stay away from her. But deep down i wanted to know what else happened in her life and i just asked. She started she has been relationship with that guy at the time of our breakup. They were physically involved and they mutually broke up due to career differences. Later she was relationship with a guy from her apartment who is 3 years younger than her. His mom caught and they broke up. And she involved couple of other relationships which hardly happened for 4 months each and in each relationship she was physically involved.
In everyone’s life a phase comes where we are fed up of everything and just wanted to settled up. Now it’s me for her. I understood. I wanted to start my game. I said ok and we entered relationship for me it’s just timepass till I get married for her I don’t know. We went to trips staycations etc. I never said I will marry her or atleast i love u in this whole time.
One day she said her father wanna talk to me. I said what the reason. She said for marriage proposal. I said the same thing I never gave u hope of marriage or never said love u. So it’s just normal thing for u. Chill and I quit the room.