Mo prathama bija mo bhauni naa re
he, main odisha, bharat se hun। main abhi 26 saal ka hoon aur meri bahan 29 saal ki hai। asal men, yah ek kabulnama hai ki main kaise apni bahan ke saath sharirik sambandh banane laga।
yah baat 2012 ki hai, jab main 7vin class mein tha aur meri bahan 10vin mein thi। use pehli baar periods aaye the। uske stan ubhar aaye the aur uski gand dhire-dhire bahar ki or nikalne lagi thi। yah sab mere liye bilkul naya tha। wah apne wahi purane kapde pahanti thi, jo aamtaur par dhile-dhale hote the।
ham zameen par baithkar ek saath khana khate the। wah apna ek pair failakar rakhti thi, jabki dusra pair zameen par sidha rakhti thi; isse uski gand ka ek hissa upar uth jata tha। isliye, jab wah khana khati thi, to uske stan uske pajame ke upari hisse se bahar jhankate hue dikhai dete the। is bar, uske naye-naye ubharte hue stan bhi bahar latak rahe the। peele rang ki dress ke niche, lal bra ke sahare tike hue uske bhure rang ke stan dekhkar mujhe us din jannat ka ehsaas hua। meri aankhen puri tarah se un bhure golon par tiki hui thin। main bus unhen apne hathon mein thamna chahta tha। uske stanon ke beech ki daraar (cleavage) saaf dikhai de rahi thi। maine apna khana jaldi-jaldi khatm kiya, daudkar apne bistar par gaya, aur us drishya ki kalpana karte hue hastmaithun kiya।
agli baar se, mera bus ek hi maksad tha: un latakte hue 'gubbaron' ko dekhna—yani, apni bahan ko puri tarah nagn dekhna। main uske saath zabardast sex karna chahta tha। main khud ko kosta tha ki main uska bhai bankar kyon paida hua। main sapna dekhta tha ki main ghar chhodkar bhag jaunga, aur kuch saalon baad jab wapas aaunga—jab koi mujhe pehchan nahin payega—to main usse shaadi kar lunga। aur fir, din-rat uske saath sex karunga।
main kalpana karta hoon ki usne ek sadi pehni hui hai—bas ek hi lapet men—aur usne koi blouse nahin pehna hai। main bus sadi ko thoda sa hataunga, aur wah mere samne puri tarah nagn khadi hogi।
jab hum saath mein koi film dekhte the, ya uski saheliyon ke saath baithkar baatein karte the, to main uske theek bagal mein baithta tha। main apni nazrein uski dress ke andar gadae rakhta tha—un latakte hue bade-bade stanon ko dekhta rahata tha—aur uske nipple ki ek jhalak paane ki koshish karta rahata tha। mujhe khud to iska ehsaas nahin hua, lekin mujhe pura yakeen hai ki uski saheliyon ne mere is bartaav ko zaroor notice kiya hoga। dhire-dhire, maine uski saheliyon ke saath bhi vaisa hi bartaav karna shuru kar diya।
main chahta tha ki yah puri duniya gayab ho jaye; bus main aur vah—donon nagn avastha men—bistar par ek saath lete hon। mera chehra uski yoni ke paas ho, aur mera ling uske chehre ke pas—uske muh ke theek upar—ho। aur bas, samay wahin tham jaye। sirf do shrir, jo ek-dusre ki chahat mein doobe hue hon। do janwar jo rishton, samajik parampraon, naitikta aur sadachar ki duniya se pare han।
vah shareer jo is dharti par mere aane ke baad se hi mere itna kareeb raha, ki uske jawani mein kadam rakhne ke daur ne mujhe itni havas se bhar diya, ki mera land—jo usi srot se paida hua tha jisse uski yoni—ek hone ki chah mein mere shareer ka sara jivan-ras bahar nikaal laya। mujhe hamesha is baat ka afsos rahata hai ki wah uske muh ya yoni mein pravesh nahin kar saka।
jis pal maine pehli baar apni bahan ko ek patle tauliye mein dekha, mujhe ehsaas hua ki land ke liye rishton ka koi matlab nahin hota; use to bus ek chhed chahiye hota hai।
maine apni maa ko bhi usi nazar se dekhna shuru kar diya। mere pita dwara pehli baar uski seal tode jaane ke vichar hi mere man mein har pal ghumte rahte the। kaise mere pita ne uske seene se sadi hatai hogi, uske blouse ke button khole honge, uske nipples ko kata hoga। jis pal unhone uski clit ko chhua hoga, vah—ek gaon ki ladki—apne poore shareer mein ek bijli si daudati mahsoos kar rahi hogi। unhone apna land bahar nikala hoga aur use uske muh mein daal diya hoga, saath hi uski kunwari chut ko chata hoga। phir ek zordar dhakke ke saath uski seal tod di hogi। usne pehli baar us ehsaas ko jiya hoga; un tamam samvednaon ne use aur zyada ki chahat se bhar diya hoga।
badkismati se, mere pita ka land chhota hai। isliye main hamesha yah kalpana karta hoon ki main ek 'time mashin' lekar us daur mein wapas jaun, apni maa ko chodun, aur khud ko janm doon। use mere saath le aao aur meri bahan ke saath use bhi meri randi bana do।