Like many others I got into this stuff because I tried on some panties and then more stuff followed (dressing more feminine, shaving, buying toys etc). I’ve been into this on and off for about 4 years now and I haven’t been able to pick a side. Fully commit to the sissy lifestyle or say it’s not for me and move on with it. I’ve watched Hypnos, met up with men, shaved myself dressed up and dolled up, bought clothes and toys only to purge and get rid of them all. I’ve even had a dom who knew his shit offer to train me up but every time i either backed out or decided to take a break, Yet I can’t move on.
This last year has been the worse, I don’t dress up as much as I used too, I got rid of all my toys and haven’t bought more. I just scroll reddit and hypnotube whenever I’m horny and then once the jobs done it’s just back to normal. I know this is the story for a lot of people who are into this kink but I’d rather not be one of the half-ass sissy’s who doesn’t bother to take it seriously. Yet I can’t let go. My best guess is that I’m attracted to the fantasy of it all. The idea of saying that one day I’ll take the plunge and never go back. But does that make me a sissy?
Tbh I’m really just looking for advice from people who know it the best. Feel free to ask more specific questions I know that this post has been quite general but I feel like I’ve already ranted for too long.