I just wanted to make a post somewhere, appreciating my wife and her support of this.
When I found out I was into this, I was pretty ashamed. Due to the fact that society really views it as very taboo and pathetic. Most people don’t understand why I would want to watch another man fuck my wife after all. this was particularly frustrating to me because while I didn’t know yet why I had this fetish, I knew that humiliation was not an aspect of it I desired. I didn’t want to be humiliated by the fact my wife was fucking another man, I just wanted to be turned on by it.
In my first marriage, my first wife tried it. It didn’t go perfectly, but it was enough to satisfy the curiosity for then. We tried more, and eventually she fizzled out of it. Then our marriage ended, lol, and though it was for very different reasons that still put me off of exploring that fetish for a while. I then worked up the courage later in life to ask my then girlfriend, and that was just a flat out refusal. That taught me something interesting. I tried to live without this kink, but every time I tried to not think about it, I ended up thinking about it more. And again the shame would creep in. Especially because it was something she didn’t desire in the slightest. I felt there was something wrong with me, like I was some kind of freak. That relationship blessedly ended, and then after a while, I met my current wife.
From the beginning, I told her about it. I decided I’d learned my lesson from the last one, and decided to put my freak out there right from the get go. And after about six months together, we did it for the first time. It went marvelously. She enjoyed herself, enjoyed them, and I wasn’t made to feel pathetic. In fact, she made me feel somehow sexier. I’ve realized through our marriage and exploring this that the real reason I enjoy this is because I am confident enough in my own sexual security to allow her to have her cake and eat it too. I find it hot because I trust her enough to do so. I find it hot because she genuinely enjoys it.
Without my wife’s willingness and readiness to explore this, I would’ve never learned these things about myself. I would never have learned what sexual compersion is, and I never would’ve realized that in actuality, my main kink is giving. Giving the experience of novelty in this one shot life we all share.
We have one scheduled tomorrow, I’m very very excited, and I was just thinking about how lucky I am. In a weird way, the exploration of this kink has done nothing but bring us closer together. I am a very happy and satisfied man lol.