u/Advanced-Field8946

Hello and welcome,

I have an interesting story to share about my self and my experience within the bdsm lifestyle. I found some bondage pictures when right after turning 18, I don’t recall how I found them but I did and set me on a path of exploration. Growing up I always felt different, I went to a small catholic school where I was extremely shy and didn’t talk much. Feeling different was with the girls in the school, I felt below them, I didn’t make any sense but I was the boy that held books, opened doors and never asked for anything in return. So let’s just say finding those pictures at 18 teen made a lot of things make sense.

Even at that young age I found it easy to admit I was submissive to Women. I started to learn about myself and notice things, like that I was attracted to women’s feet. The only thing I did before this that would be considered submissive was doing some cross dressing with my older sister stuff a few years earlier, I hadn’t really thought about that since then but that was another thing I noticed. I started to do as much research as I could in to what this lifestyle was, and I got extremely lucky to find a local bdsm chat and to meet a nice older (in her earlier 20’s) woman who was more submissive then Dominant. We became friends and it was through her and my submissive mind, that I allowed her to push me in the Dominant direction. I knew it wasn’t my place but I was a stubborn male who decided I was going to make it my role. I continued as one after she moved away and we lost touch.

I’ll admit I was decent at being a Dominant, I had subs mostly online but a few in real time. But the voice was always there telling me this is wrong and this isn’t you. But i stubbornly continued on. Then Covid hit and I had time to myself. That voice was getting louder and louder. I did have one submissive at that time who was an irl. I know I was as happy by that point and I wasn’t as good at being a Dominant. This sub, could read me like a book and told me what I needed to hear. She did a great job at setting me straight and didn’t embarrass me too much.

So I started over in 2021, I am not going to hide my past. It was I was. I have some experience with one off Dominants but I haven’t had anything permanent or long term yet. I’m would like to find a Female Dominant interested in trained a former Dominant in his correct role. I do have a few submissive interests and outside of my hard limits, I am very open minded and willing to explore and learn.

I like to meet a Dominant Female that likes to teach and would be willing to help me explore more. I am in the US. Pennsylvania to be specific. I would like some that can lead to a long term relationship, starting online and could move to irl in time. I am open to any race and while I would preferred someone younger than me (between 22-35) anyone is welcome.

Hope to hear from you soon.