20 [M4A] Germany/ Online - The girl I have a crush on gives me her used condoms
So I have this huge crush on a girl (19) from my class. She’s not the most „girly“ type... kinda tomboy vibe but I’m completely in love with her anyway. Sadly she doesn’t see me that way at all, like zero romantic interest. She knows I’m into her though and kinda uses it.
For months now I’ve been eating her used condoms. Yeah, I know how fucked up that sounds. She hooks up with other guys (a lot), comes home, ties the condom and brings them to me in school. I have to kneel there while she watches, open it, pour it out and swallow everything. Tastes awful, salty-bitter, sometimes still warm. She laughs or films short clips on her phone, says stuff like „good boy, keep going“.
She promised that if I eat enough of them ...she said „a decent collection“ ... she’ll finally let me see her tits. Just see, no touching. I’m so fucking desperate that I keep doing it. I’m at like 17 or 18 now, lost count a bit. Every time I think „this is the last one“, she sends another pic of a fresh tied condom and I cave again.
She keeps telling me details about the guys who fuck her – how big they are, how long they last, how rough they get – and I get so jealous and turned on at the same time. I want that so bad, to be the one inside her, but I’m just the pathetic cleanup guy.
Now I feel like the biggest loser on earth. Can’t tell any of my friends, can’t talk to family, nobody would understand. I’m ashamed as hell but I can’t stop either. If somebody wants to talk about this shit, seriously, hit me up. I’m losing my mind here.