18f - I let my best friends dad use me whenever he wants!
I've never felt like I belonged anywhere. I'm adopted and my parents are really amazing, but I've always felt different. I'm terrible at making friends because of how socially awkward I can be sometimes. My best (and only) friend is a girl who I go to school with. We both go to the same catholic school and bonded over anime and video games.
After I turned eighteen, I was staying over at her house when her dad and I started talking. We'd talked before, but this time he was telling me how gorgeous I was, how he really wanted a girlfriend like me, etc. I don't know why, but the stuff he was saying made me really happy.
After my friend went to bed, I stayed up a bit with her dad and that's when I gave him a blowjob for the first time. I'd never done anything sexual prior to that, so it was a really crazy experience. From that point on, we've had a secret relationship. He texts me to come over whenever he wants, and then he uses me, either my mouth or sex. It makes me feel really guilty when I think about it, but when it happens, I'm more happy than I've ever been before. He also records it a lot and has sent me the videos, which I spend hours and hours watching and rewatching.