I’m going down a slippery slope.
I’m only barely 17, I’ve been addicted to Adderall since I was 15, barely an addiction anymore but the cravings for drugs in general never went away. I’m getting Percocet tomorrow and I’m honestly kinda terrified. Like I’m just a kid bro. What if it’s laced with fent? I have narcan and my boyfriend will watch me but still. I only wanna try it once or twice, one of the reasons being because how is a 17 year old supposed to get $200 every week or so for some pills.
I feel a sort of innocent inside me screaming. I’m only a kid. Part of me feels like a guilty puppy who’s supposed to be innocent but is doing all this stupid shit.
It’s like the cravings never go away. It’s like my life revolved around drugs. I want to stop, but for some reason I won’t.
My brain craves a feeling it doesn’t even know. Well, I guess it will know by tomorrow.
Edit: plug randomly insisted on online payment, so I’m assuming it’s a scammer my search continues..