25FTM I want my exes baby now! Fertile and ready womb.
My ex and I broke up 18months ago but have kept fucking since. About a year ago, I came off T for a bit which I then extended the time of due to my period returning and hoping he’d put a baby in me since I’m fertile again.
We’ve almost always done it raw, knowing the risk on T was low but sometimes taking the morning after pill anyway just to be safe. A few weeks ago, he told me I was going to skip the morning after pill and we were going to wait for a positive test result. He wants to fuck me while I’m truly pregnant before we deal with realities after.
But the problem now is that, I want to carry to term. He wants to eventually have kids, specifically with me, but only after we get married. I’m due to take my first test soon and if it’s positive, I know I’ll want to keep it.
What should I do? Tell him I terminated then disappear forever having secretly kept it? Do what he wants. Convince him this could be my only chance to have a baby since abortion can affect my ability to ever have kids again and we keep it.
I only want his baby in me, he’s the one who took my virginity, I want him to father my kids. But I don’t want marriage.