38 [F4A] birthday blues, i guess?
birthday ko bukas and it will be my first birthday na wala sya. di ko alam kung bakit nalulungkot ako kahit he never planned something on my birthday. kahit yung batiin man lang ako sa fb. binabati nya kasi lahat except ako.
so yun. i still want the guy who never wanted me in the first place.
i have realized my worth kaya di ko na sya hinabol when he decided to ghost me. pero andon pa rin yung what if i tried harder? kahit ako lang naman talaga ang lumaban para samin.
healing is not linear kaya may mga episodes ako na ganito or maybe i haven't fully grieved kasi i have to pretend na i am okay most of the time.
so yun. at this point i just want someone to be there for me. i have no friends na pwede kong iyakan so can you be that one for me?
i promise I'll also offer my shoulder for you to lean on.