Eight Beautiful Months!!
Yesterday I hit a milestone I never would have thought possible, 8 months denied. Not a single orgasm, not even an oopsie. I am not entirely sure I could even make myself cum on my own. My body and my brain are in absolute bliss in their current state. The current goal is to finish 2026 without orgasm. I am confident at this point that is just a formality at this point. Obviously I cannot predict the future, but I am not able to see myself needing an orgasm ever again.
I am not constantly turned on, I am functional. Which was not the case around the six month mark. I had to take a break from reddit, trying to self deny at the feverish levels my arousal had reached was hard enough without any extra stimuli. I am past that, there is a thin veneer of control. Now that state of mind altering arousal is a whisper, humming beneath the surface, and it can break through at any time. Either at my will, or cruelly, when I do not wish it to happen. There are times where just the feeling of the clothes I am wearing will be enough to cause my body to ache.
And I bask in that sensation. The need has become my state. Suspended in a permanent desire to stay denied that only grows stronger the longer I do so.
I apologize, I would have attempted a more gratifying pic, but after spending the horny and needy and in disbelief that I had hit 8 months I had to get home and fuck my ass. I purchased a Hismith fucking machine that has become the center of my anal training. Which is all I have been craving. I was already too far into it to take decent pics. I didn't even get my bra off ffs..😂
I'll attempt to share more of these this coming week.