this is legit embarrassing to post but im gonna say it anyway. that happened a few months ago. since then i havent really let myself get close to anyone because im just... embarrassed. like what if they think its gross. what if they freak out. what if they make me feel weird about something i cant even control.
my ex pretended to like it at first but then he made little comments. like can you not do that on my sheets. killed the vibe completely. after that i just held back every time and it wasnt even fun anymore.
so yeah. i havent been with anyone since the mattress incident. but im tired of hiding it. i cant help it. when it feels good it just... happens. and honestly it feels amazing. until the shame kicks in after.
so what im looking for is someone who actually genuinely likes it. not someone who tolerates it. someone who thinks its hot. someone who wants to make me do it on purpose. maybe even gets turned on by it. i want to be with someone where i dont have to apologize or warn them or sleep on a towel like some kind of leaky faucet .you just gotta be older than me. clean. single. and actually into this. not just saying you are to get in my pants. cause ill know. whether youve been with a girl who squirts before and how you felt about it.
if you seem normal and not judgmental i send my address. please dont make me feel weird about this. ive already thrown away one mattress. dont wanna make it two.