u/Artistic_Ad_9132

And a cheater.

I have been dating my boyfriend for more than 2 years now. I don't have any excuse for the cheating. It just happened. Our relationship was not perfect by any means, but no relationship is. I do love him.

It started when I met this guy online. He was complimenting me non stop and telling me my bf was so lucky to have a gf that looked like me. He thought I was super sexy and wished his wife was as hot as me.

I liked talking to him. It made me feel good. This is why when he asked me to send pics in lingerie, I did not block him. I was hesitant. I knew it was wrong... but then he offered to pay me. So I did it.

He was so excited when I sent them to him. He kept telling me how perfect I was and how much he wanted me. He said he could not stop looking at the pics and they made him so hard and he was jealous of my bf. And it made me feel good. It made me feel wanted. Not that my bf ever made me feel unwanted... but idk... it was nice having someone show so much interest in me.

He kept saying how much my tits were perfect and he wanted to see them so bad and it would make him the happiest man if I ever decided to show him more. This time he did not need to pay me. I sent a video, teasing him but never showing my naked tits. This made him go crazy. He started sending me dick pics, blaming me for his hard ons. I really liked how horny I was making him. I really enjoyed teasing him and acting all innocent when he would blame me for making him hard.

He started asking for more videos, but when I was reluctant, he offered to pay me again, but this time he had specific demands. He wanted to see me fully naked, playing with myself. The money was too good to pass on... so I did it.

From there on he started calling me his whore. He would offer to pay me to make him cum and I would do it. I won't sit here and play victim. I could have stopped anytime but I kept on doing it because he was very generous and I was enjoying it. We were both having fun.

A few months in and I am still being a whore for him. He is having more and more control on my life. He says if I want him to keep giving me gifts and rewarding me, I need to be a good whore. He decides what I wear. He wants me available when he needs me. Always willing to make him cum, even if i'm at work.

So far I knew what we were doing was not good but I could not stop myself. I became obsessed with pleasing him. It was not even for the money at that point. The worst part is I would think of him while having sex with my bf and this would make me cum so hard. All these things he'd have me do would keep replaying in my mind during sex and it would make me cum so hard. In an attempt to justify my trash behaviour, I told myself that this was hurting no one and it anything it was making ny sex life with my bf more spicy. My bf had noticed how horny I was and how much more I came during sex and this was boosting his ego.

One time online guy sent me to work with no panties and a buttplug in my ass. He had me keep it in until lunch. Then he had me go to the bathroom and video call him so he could cum while I fucked my ass. No talking. Just stetching my asshole for him until he came. I was horny af for the rest of the day and had to beg him to let me cum when I got home.

Eventually he wanted to meet. He had some business in my town and would be there for the weekend. So far even though I knew what we were doing was wrong, I had justified it by telling myself it was just online. There was no physical cheating. So I was reluctant to meet him. I told him I could never do that to my bf... then he offered me money. More that he had ever sent me before. More than what I make in a month. But ofc it came with strings. I had to be his whore for the weekend. I would do everything I was told to. I would wear what I was told to.

I refused at first so he broke things off. He told me I was a disappointment and that maybe he was mistaken about me. Rather than let him go, I apologized. I begged for his forgiveness and agreed to meet. Maybe I have daddy issues idk... i just did not want it to stop.

I told my bf that work was sending me out of town for the weekend. He did not question it. We met at his hotel. I thought he would take me to his hotel room straightaway but instead we had lunch first. I could barely touch my food... i was so nervous.

After lunch we finally went to his room. As soon as we got in the room he told me to get on my knees and take my tits out before he shoved his cock in my mouth. He kept calling me a whore while I was sucking him and this turned me on so much. I thought he would fuck me but he kept using my mouth. Sometimes letting me suck him at my own pace, sometimes face fucking me. When he came, he shoved his cock down my throat and forced me to swallow his load. I almost passed out.

He was still hard when he finally pulled out. He asked if I wanted him to fuck me and I nodded. But this was not what he wanted to hear. He wanted me to beg him. He had me take all my clothes off and show him my cunt. He would only fuck me if I could show him how bad I wanted it. He made me play with myself and beg for it while he watched and even recorded it. When he was satisfied I had humiliated myself enough, he took me in front of the window of his hotel room. We were on the 4th floor, and the window was overlooking the city. He pressed my tits against the glass and shoved his cock inside me. I was soaking wet. He kept calling me names and telling me that whores like me needed to be exposed. He wants everyone to see that I am a whore that fucks for money. I lost count of how many times I came while he was fucking me. My legs were weak and shaking so much but he kept me pinned against the window and fucked me until he came inside me.

Yes I let this guy fuck me raw and cum inside me. I don't even let my bf fuck me without a condom yet I did not even mention condoms to that guy. I even begged him to cum inside me.

That weekend he used all of my holes. We barely left the room or slept. All we did was fuck. By the time the weekend was over I was a mess and so sore.

It's been 2 months now and I can't stop thinking about it. I am always horny af because of it. He is coming back next month and I can't wait. I know its bad. I know i'm trash. I know I should break up with my bf.