I had to visit Nuevo Progresso, Mexico a few weeks ago for some much needed dental work at an affordable price. I did a little research before traveling, but wasn't really prepared for what I stumbled into.
Anyways, I found a street bar that had a good atmosphere to it, and while there I looked to my left and saw my dentist was right next door, to my right there were signs for two strip clubs, but I just had a beer and some tacos my first day. My 2nd day I had a little too much to drink and the bar tenders(who work for the strip club) convinced me to visit the club. I was nervous going in so I ordered a beer and sat down, and almost immediately was getting approached by girls for a free dance. I turned down the first because her forwardness was a little too much for me, but the 2nd girl was sweet and wanted to talk a little first. After I took her up on a dance, she offered an hourly rate and I accepted. I should probably also mention at this point this was my first time with a woman, so I was nervous, also there was a bit of a lanugage barrier because i dont speak spanish. But she took it slow, dirty talk, ear nibbles and stuff like that, then grabbed my hand to guide me to the bed. She guided me through it, and it was really an amazing experience. I visited her 2 or 3 more times that week and kind of fell in love with her a little.
My problem now is I've been home for about 3 weeks now and I don't think I've gone a day without thinking about her, and have been working 50 to 60 hour weeks just to save enough money to go back to visit her again in a few months. It wasn't even about getting off for me, but ive never felt intimacy before. What i remember the most was just her gentle touch or resting her head on my chest. And despite it being transitional, it felt right. She also texts me now and then to talk about life or whatever, and that's kind of messing me up too. Part of me knows its a manipulational tactic to make sure I come back to visit her, but part of me wants to believe she actually liked me as much as I liked her.
Sorry if this isn't much of a story, its more of a confession of what happened, as I don't have anyone in my life I can tell this to. I can answer questions for anyone curious.