56m curious ok maybe a little more than just curious
So i have been married for over 35 years. She lost her desire for sex in her early 40s so for a long time its been me my phone and my hand. Recently I was looking for a good video to make me cum. I came across a MMF porno. I was hoping for some dp action. So I hit play. But after a while one of the guys started to suck the other guy off. And instead of changing the video I was mesmerized. Watch him suck off his buddy. And then they started to fuck. I came immediately. Then I guilt shamed myself but couldn't stop thinking about it. I remember an incident when I was in high school. My buddy and I were like 14 years old and we went to a party. Afterwards we crash at my house. Soon sitting in the dark I was laying on my bed and he was on the floor. We were talking about the girls at the party and we both ended up horny as hell. There was w small amout of light the came in through the window. I peeked over the side of the bed and he was jerking off. So I said fuck it and started to walk myself. After a few minutes I felt a hand on my dick. I looked up just in time to see him take my whole cock in his mouth. It felt amazing it was my first real bj. I came in a matter of seconds. And I returned the favor to him. I loved the feel of him cumming in my mouth. It was so hot I can remember. Well we fooled around like that a few more times but I met a girl and was getting laid so that was the end of that.
Recently while jerking ive started to watch bi porn and really got off watching guys fuck. So here I am married straight guy that has an urge to be with a guy. Dont plan on leaving my sexless wife. But I think I need to fuck and be fucked by a guy.