We are both our first everything. First partner, first sex, literally everything. But deep down, I'm starting to feel the urge to let her cuck me.
To preface, I'm quite small, and have had issues getting it up in bed with her before. She always assures me it's a good size, and how she likes it (which I don't doubt), but I cant help but imagine her feeling that way if she had something better. That she doesn't know how to fully feel satisfied in bed, because she's never had proper sex before.
Now, that thought creeps it way into every sexual action we have. During sex, I imagine her getting fucked by other men. Bigger men, who can give her what she needs. I think about it when she gives me hand jobs, when we're simply being flirty with each other. It's what I think about when I watch porn. It's now turning into the only way I can finish.
It doesn't even need to be someone bigger, I just want it to be someone else, anyone else. The thought of being forced to share her because im not good enough is something Ive come to love. I've thought about making a dating profile with her pics, and seeing how many guys want her. Seeing how much better she can have it. I'd never do this without her permission, of course, but I want it.
So yeah. I'm lost on how I'd even bring this up to her, and I'd never expect her to want but. But deep down, I wish there was a side to her that would love it. But for now, I'll keep imagining her fucked by other guys at every chance I get.