Man. It’s been an interesting couple of weeks. Slipped hard after 1 year and 3 months of sobriety from ketamine, don’t even know why I just feel like I have this weird self destruction button inside of me I constantly want to press and I finally got to a point where I pressed it. After slamming it throughout the day all day everyday for the last few weeks I’ve got to a pretty shitty point lol.
First time I’ve had ket cramps and damn they fucking hurt like hell, my head has been a mess as well. But finally I’m at my last bit left after saying that last time and buying more, this time I’m actually ready to stop again. Had my fun and just gonna go back to smoking weed now 😂 just felt like writing an update to my previous post even though I don’t think the same people will particularly see it. But yeah, last post was ‘fuck sobriety I hate it’ this post is more a ‘fuck sobriety I hate it, but I’m more ready to be sober than high as balls 24/7 off ket’.
Big step, time to start sorting my shit out.