I've always been a shy and anxious guy for as long as I can remember, and I've also known how much I love cock. I watched gay porn for years, had hundreds of dick pics and cum shot videos saved on my phone to look at whenever I wanted to see cock but never had the courage to get cock in person as I lacked any self esteem.
On my 23rd birthday, I made it my mission to lose my virginity to a dominating man that would fuck me raw. The thought of being fucked raw by a complete stranger always appealed to me and felt the natural way to do it.
I'm a shy, submissive & feminine twink bottom and there's not an ounce of dominance or manliness in me. I submit to manly older men with ease.
I went on Grindr looking for a man to take my virginity and fuck me raw. I found a 35-year old man who was willing to meet me ASAP and claim my virginity. I requested we hookup outdoors as I was too nervous to go his place and I couldn't host as I lived with my parents. He agreed, and setup a time and place to meet.
I was beyond nervous and quite anxious, but this is what I had wanted for YEARS. I had wanted cock even before I turned 18 years old but I never had the confidence to seek it out.
30 minutes later, we met up at a parking lot and my nerves were through the roof. He looked like average guy, nothing particularly attractive about him but he was willing to fuck me and I wanted to be fucked so I didn't care about how he looked. He asked me if I was the guy from Grindr and I nervously nodded, and said yes to him.
I told him I knew a secluded and discreet spot that we could go to, which was an overgrown forest a minute or so away from the parking lot. I led him here, and we pushed through the branches and overgrowth before I found a slightly open space for us. At this point, my anxiety had never been worse, and I was so nervous, my heart was beating so fast and I contemplated telling him I couldn't do it, but I was desperate for cock.
I pushed through the nervous, and began taking off my clothes in front of him, placing them in a neat pile next to us. I got down on my knees, and I pulled his jeans & briefs down to his ankles, revealing his beautiful flaccid cock in front of my face. I couldn't help but stare at it in awe.
There was a cock in front of me, that belonged to an older man that I didn't know the name of and had only been messaging for about an hour. As soon as I reached out to grab hold of it, the nerves and anxiety completely disappeared in an instant. I realised cock calms me and eases my anxiety better than any medication or breathing techniques ever have.
I wanked him off slowly, feeling him get erect in my hand as his foreskin pulled back and forth. I felt my hands get wet with precum which I licked before edging his fully erect, 5 inch cock into my eager, drooling mouth.
The feel of his cock in my mouth sent me into sub space and I found myself to be so content and the happiest I've ever been. He pushed it deeper, until he was balls deep into my throat, deepthroating him and loving every second of it.
Before long, I knew what I wanted and came here for, I wanted to lose my virginity, for it to be taken roughly and raw. I pulled his cock out of my mouth, turned around and bent over in front of him, revealing my tight, virgin ass as I spread it open for him. I knew this was it, this was the moment I had been waiting years for & dreaming of.
I eagerly awaited as I felt him behind me, touching my asshole, which was throbbing, with his wet, erect and also throbbing cock. A sharp pain filled my body as he pushed it inside me. Oh my god I thought, I have a cock inside me!
I couldn't contain my excitement and I moaned like a bitch as he edged his cock further inside my asshole. It felt so big, and it hurt but I loved the pain...
He pushed the entire shaft inside me, before allowing me to get used to his cock for several minutes. Every movement made me whine and I felt my asshole stretching around him.
When he had given me some time, he grabbed hold of me and began to fuck me slowly. I reached out and held on to a tree in front of me, whilst I couldn't contain my loud moans. I was being fucked, my virginity was being taken away from me and I was loving it. He gradually picked up speed and began fucking me rough, which had me screaming. My ass clapped in sync with my very loud moans, and in the moment, I didn't care how long I was being or who heard me.
He fucked me deep, raw and rough, and I was feeling every inch of it. My ass was throbbing constantly as I continued to feel full and felt like I was on the verge of a deep anal orgasm. After fucking me for 15 minutes, he told he was going to cum, so I demanded he kept fucking me and to fill me up, which he did. He groaned loudly and fucked deeper as he barebacked me. I felt the warmness of his cum and it sloshing around inside me. It truly felt incredible.
He pulled his cock out of my ass, and I went straight back down on my knees to suck him off. I missed having it in my mouth, and I wanted to clean up any remaining cum off him. After a few minutes, he went flaccid & announced he was empty.
He pulled his jeans & briefs back up as I began putting my clothes back on, and we exchanged some brief small talk before we went our separate ways.