u/Brave-Ranger7722

I have been dating ONLY women since I was 18, I am now 23. I labeled myself as a lesbian because that’s what I’ve been into for a long time (my friend told me that men blink the wrong way and I cringe, which is true) but my freind has a roommate that I’ve only met twice. The second time we met for some reason I was incredibly attracted to him.. and he was playfully flirting with me infront of everyone, even though everyone’s knows I’m a lesbian, I just look very straight. I just want to get to know him more, which is something I haven’t felt towards a guy really since I was a teen. I’m not sure if it’s because he looks really similarly and also has the same culture and accent as my first real boyfriend when I was young, and ultimately ended up dating women after? They ate so similar. I feel so guilty for being into him because my freind told me she’s really into him and he’s off limits (to almost everyone since I’ve moved here , I’ve been outwardly lesbian to my friends for a long time, we’ve only known eachother for about a year) but he always comes and makes time to talk to my personally by myself and flirting with me I find myself enjoying it ?? I almost hate it because I feel like I’ve done so much work accepting myself as being into woman and getting my family to accept me that it feels like I’m throwing it away. It’s also frustrating because I feel like I want to get to know him, but there’s not enough time and I’m moving, and also my friend is into him. It’s so weird because I haven’t felt like this since I was a teenager!!!